i am currently searching for an answer that is not tangible, and i find that i can spend two hours a day doing random blog surfings. Talk about mugging?
If i went on my clinical exposure, i would have completed it by now.
Perhaps i just need some time to be alone and think, not to be affected and disappointed by the thoughts or actions of others.
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Monday, November 26, 2007
the impredictable nature of life, leads u to think. To understand and know life is an art, something that I would think is my aim at this point in time.
I read the articles today about the canoeists. Since young it has always been like something very foreign and far away. Something that will never touch and concern me. But i've come to realised the interconnectedness of life, that when something changes, it affects people, and these people might be the very ones that are around you.
It shows us that that each and everyone of us has a story to tell. And one cannot dismiss another as boring or uninteresting. Life as complicated as it is, is always a force to be tamed by all of us, in which we spend most of our efforts and actions just to control it. Whatever individuality that might arise is what we can seem to sustain throughout our daily experiences, if not it dies away, slowly.
My first year in university is passing very quickly. I'm still currently at the self discovering phase, not stepping out of my circle yet. Studying people, actions, phenomenons, reading books, getting help.
I know people out there that are doing not as well, and others that are doing better. Comparison might be the fault of growth. Self contained energy is what I must develop.
People have rose to lead extraodinary lives. I want to make that change. My life cannot be just another student anymore. And for that i must learn to adapt and control.
I read the articles today about the canoeists. Since young it has always been like something very foreign and far away. Something that will never touch and concern me. But i've come to realised the interconnectedness of life, that when something changes, it affects people, and these people might be the very ones that are around you.
It shows us that that each and everyone of us has a story to tell. And one cannot dismiss another as boring or uninteresting. Life as complicated as it is, is always a force to be tamed by all of us, in which we spend most of our efforts and actions just to control it. Whatever individuality that might arise is what we can seem to sustain throughout our daily experiences, if not it dies away, slowly.
My first year in university is passing very quickly. I'm still currently at the self discovering phase, not stepping out of my circle yet. Studying people, actions, phenomenons, reading books, getting help.
I know people out there that are doing not as well, and others that are doing better. Comparison might be the fault of growth. Self contained energy is what I must develop.
People have rose to lead extraodinary lives. I want to make that change. My life cannot be just another student anymore. And for that i must learn to adapt and control.
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Im so glad, changes are coming to me, and im accepting them!
The 20 rules of adulthood, something i never envisioned myself to embark on, but its time:
Realizing that maturity is an ongoing process, not a state, and continuously striving for self improvement.
Able to manage personal jealousy and feelings of envy.
Has the ability to listen to and evaluate the viewpoints of others.
Maintains patience and flexibility on a daily basis.
Accepts the fact that you can’t always win, and learns from mistakes instead of whining about the outcome.
Does not overanalyze negative points, but instead looks for the positive points in the subject being analyzed.
Is able to differentiate between rational decision making and emotional impulse.
Understands that no skill or talent can overshadow the act of preparation.
Capable of managing temper and anger.
Keeps other people’s feeling in mind and limits selfishness.
Being able to distinguish between ‘needs’ and ‘wants’.
Shows confidence without being overly arrogant.
Handles pressure with self composure.
Takes ownership and responsibility of personal actions.
Manages personal fears.
Able to see the various shades of grey between the extremes of black and white in every situation.
Accepts negative feedback as a tool for self improvement.
Aware of personal insecurities and self-esteem.
Able to separate true love from transitory infatuation.
Understanding that open communication is the key to progression
The reality out there is so very scary, but I'm determined to face it. WITH FAITH. My shield is strong and protected, i WOULD stand firm!
I am going to be the most interesting, smartest, friendliest, associable guy possible.
The 20 rules of adulthood, something i never envisioned myself to embark on, but its time:
Realizing that maturity is an ongoing process, not a state, and continuously striving for self improvement.
Able to manage personal jealousy and feelings of envy.
Has the ability to listen to and evaluate the viewpoints of others.
Maintains patience and flexibility on a daily basis.
Accepts the fact that you can’t always win, and learns from mistakes instead of whining about the outcome.
Does not overanalyze negative points, but instead looks for the positive points in the subject being analyzed.
Is able to differentiate between rational decision making and emotional impulse.
Understands that no skill or talent can overshadow the act of preparation.
Capable of managing temper and anger.
Keeps other people’s feeling in mind and limits selfishness.
Being able to distinguish between ‘needs’ and ‘wants’.
Shows confidence without being overly arrogant.
Handles pressure with self composure.
Takes ownership and responsibility of personal actions.
Manages personal fears.
Able to see the various shades of grey between the extremes of black and white in every situation.
Accepts negative feedback as a tool for self improvement.
Aware of personal insecurities and self-esteem.
Able to separate true love from transitory infatuation.
Understanding that open communication is the key to progression
The reality out there is so very scary, but I'm determined to face it. WITH FAITH. My shield is strong and protected, i WOULD stand firm!
I am going to be the most interesting, smartest, friendliest, associable guy possible.
Friday, November 16, 2007
sad realities are popping up on my face, does anyone feel that way too?
im glad i found someone who thinks like how i do, and that we seem to have a common understanding.
im taking this first step out, very meekly, seeking answers, a step i thought i would never have to make, and i didn't understand y pple make them,
the light at the end of the tunnel just seems too faint, and i hate this entire thing being thrown at my face again.
Truth hurts and sucks.
I have very little of what more i can give, and my faith is diminishing
i want to have choices, i want to feel appreciated, i want to make others happy and want to do so to me
if people can achieve them why cant i? i must be happy with the world im creating, and believe that things will change for the better
to have FUN and to enjoy life's greatest pleasures
im glad i found someone who thinks like how i do, and that we seem to have a common understanding.
im taking this first step out, very meekly, seeking answers, a step i thought i would never have to make, and i didn't understand y pple make them,
the light at the end of the tunnel just seems too faint, and i hate this entire thing being thrown at my face again.
Truth hurts and sucks.
I have very little of what more i can give, and my faith is diminishing
i want to have choices, i want to feel appreciated, i want to make others happy and want to do so to me
if people can achieve them why cant i? i must be happy with the world im creating, and believe that things will change for the better
to have FUN and to enjoy life's greatest pleasures
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